get real.

she doesn't know how much of this abuse she could take any longer. it's making her change. so much.

she feels used. and seem that she can't do nothing about it. it's like she doesn't know how to explain it. she hates this. it seems so foreign. she doesn't know whether to fight or flight anymore. she feels invisible. if that's possible at all. just like a wall flower. she doesn't know whether she should settle it or not.

she doesn't know.

should she or should she not?

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well, today's physics practical, was much better than i thought it would be. until i realised that i labelled the axes wrongly! dang man! gosh. well, at least it was better that biology, with that dropper thingy which took me about one hour and five minutes! leaving only half of one question done. can you believe it?

hmm, nothing much happened today. well, i'm still not awake. why can't i wake up, i have no idea. i really want to, yet i can't. or is it just me not bringing myself to? i don't know.

i need another wake up call.